[01:29] IAMSpartacus117: I could have gone to bed fucking happy and content today.
[01:30] IAMSpartacus117: but you had to be you.
[01:38] IAMSpartacus117: I enjoy being your friend. and I'm going to miss you when we're not friends. but I can't do this on my own. I can't be friends with your apathy.
[01:38] IAMSpartacus117: I have nothing.
[01:39] IAMSpartacus117: You've never given me the slightest idea that you in any way shape of form enjoy my company, or even like me or respect me or find anything about me remotely pleasing.
[01:40] IAMSpartacus117: you're apathetic about me.
[01:41] IAMSpartacus117: All I know is that at any second you could suddenly decide that you're bored or I'm too annoying and go back to ignoring me for a year.
[01:41] IAMSpartacus117: It's not a friendship.
[01:41] IAMSpartacus117: what we have.
[01:42] IAMSpartacus117: if you had it your way, we'd have nothing.
[01:42] IAMSpartacus117: I just fill in the blanks.
[01:42] IAMSpartacus117: and make it look like something.
[01:42] IAMSpartacus117: I don't deserve such a shitty friend as you.
[01:43] IAMSpartacus117: I deserve someone who is willing to express that they give a shit about me.
[01:43] IAMSpartacus117: I deserve someone who gives a shit about me.
[01:47] IAMSpartacus117: I deserve someone who likes me. You'd think I wouldn't have to explain the requirement to a friend.
[01:48] IAMSpartacus117: So if you can't like me. I'm not going to be your friend.
[01:51] IAMSpartacus117: I'm tired of you. Tired of all you stupid fucking issues. That I forgive you for on a daily basis. I empathize. I know them well. I know what it feels like to have some of the issues you have. But I'm sacrificing way too much, allowing you to be way under the bar.
[01:51] IAMSpartacus117: Always expecting so damn little of you.
[01:52] IAMSpartacus117: Because I honestly believe that you have little to give, because of your issues. If you at all understand what I'm talking about.
[01:52] IAMSpartacus117: But if you can't get over them enough to express the smallest thingest, you don't fucking deserve friends.
[01:52] IAMSpartacus117: You deserve to be alone.
[01:54] IAMSpartacus117: It's awesome, when I feel like we're connecting.
[01:54] IAMSpartacus117: And I guess, I felt like even if you thought we were connecting too, you wouldn't say anything.
[01:55] IAMSpartacus117: But if you didn't feel like we were connecting, you also wouldn't say anything. so how am I to know if it makes a damn bit of difference to you?
[01:56] IAMSpartacus117: I guess if calling me a slut is your way of expressing fondness.
[01:58] IAMSpartacus117: and I desperately miss the simpler times. 20 minutes ago. when I was holding back from saying anything to you. when I refused to ask anything of you. Because I feel like now that I have, well, you're not going to give it to me. Why should you give a damn about me? Who am I to you? What benefit do I bring to your little life?
[01:58] IAMSpartacus117: what benefit does anybody bring to your little life?
[01:59] IAMSpartacus117: But I can't take it back.
[01:59] IAMSpartacus117: I can't go back to pretending like I'm not tortured by how little I mean to you.
[01:59] IAMSpartacus117: sorry, how NOTHING I mean to you.
[01:59] IAMSpartacus117: little would be nice.
[02:02] IAMSpartacus117: If you don't want to be my friend. fine. fuck off.
[02:02] IAMSpartacus117: But if you do want to be my friend. you have to tell me. Cause I'm not going to waste my time on someone who doesn't even like me. Who doesn't even enjoy being around me.
[02:03] IAMSpartacus117: That's one of the stupidest things I could do.
[02:03] IAMSpartacus117: And I'm such an intelligent person.
[02:05] IAMSpartacus117: So I'm going to go back to reading my book, cause it's due tomorrow. And I'm not going to talk to you not tomorrow, not the next day until you tell me that you care. And if you can't do that, then I guess you don't get to see me in my awesome plaid skirt.
[02:06] IAMSpartacus117: have a blast playing WOW.
[02:06] IAMSpartacus117: bye.